Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Moming

With Mother's Day coming up this weekend, I have been thinking a lot about "mom-ing."  Man, this is one HARD job.  I survived law school and the California Bar Exam with significantly more grace than I've done this mom gig.  The biggest lesson I've learned is that I am super selfish and impatient. I have been working super hard at being more patient, thinking more about serving my family and thinking less about what I want.  Let me tell you, it ain't easy giving up 30 years of habits though.

Now I know everyone needs their own time and stuff.  I do play tennis weekly and take occasional childless trips.  That being said, on the day-to-day, I live for my family.  Between working full time, shuttling kids around, laundry, cooking, cleaning, bills, pets, other commitments/appointments, we have NO free time.  This has been a HUGE adjustment for me.

I really admire and envy those moms who are so in the moment with their kids and handle the stress with calm and patience.  I am so not that mom.  I get angry, anxious, worked up, etc.  What's hard is that before I had kids, I really thought I would handle it with ease and grace.  Haha boy did God get me on that one!  Talk about humbling.  Luckily, He did bless me with two beautiful, healthy, smart, funny amazing kids.

I have noticed that since I stopped being bitter about it and stopped trying to find ways to do what I want with my kids, I have enjoyed them more, become closer with them and overall been much happier.  Everyone talks about being in the moment and it sounds so hippie/cliche to me, but it really is true.  When I am with them, I just have to accept that I cannot be working or whatever and enjoy being with them.

Only took me two years to figure out, but at least I made it right?  I'm sure I'll continue to struggle with this and learn plenty more lessons the hard way, but I guess that is how we become better people and stuff, right?!












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